Journeys of one mom

Last night, as I was tucking the kids into bed, I was feeling frazzled and burned out because the day had been long.  The kids had been at each other, tempers were flairing between them and it just over all stunk.  I took Sister's Bible and sat down to read to them.  I read Psalm 1.  Some of the verses are as follows: vs. 1 "blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of the mockers." vs. 2 "But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night."  vs. 3 "He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers." If you'll recall with me, I just posted a bit ago about being a seed.  This has really opened my mind up to the fact that my life needs to be TOTALLY enveloped in Him and who HE is.  When I read these Bible verses last night, it took me by surprise that ...

It's funny the journey that life takes us on.  A couple of years ago, life was much different for me. God uses life circumstances to teach us and make us realize our own faults!  For instance, one thing I have continued to work with my daughter on (As you know, we homeschool) having a better attitude about school.  She gets grumpy and thinks it's "Stupid to learn this" or she gets fussy about "Why do I have to write that when I already know how..." Being this way brings down her entire day and well, it affects the quality of her work and the mood of all of us around her!  Philippians 2:14 says "Do everything without grumbling or arguing"  As I have been teaching her this, and let me tell you... it's been a battle, God has really shown me that I have this area in my life that needs work as well! My arear isn't my school work, obviously! However, one of my health issues requires my body to eat lower carbs in order to keep my levels normal...

    I bought a new CD last night and this song was on it.  It brought me a huge smile.  After my last post, God has continued to work in me.  I have begun realizing that I have a lot of damage in my heart that I didn't realize I hadn't dealt with.  I have had 12 or 13 years of woundings to uncover and face!  When Jeff and I met, we were in a real difficult situation.  God brought us through that together so that in the end, we could be married and live an amazing life together and have an awesome little family!    Both of us had pain that we had dealt with but hadn't ripped the bandage completely off before we moved on. I think we all do that.  We'll deal with a part of the problems we bare but we leave a bit untouched that we hang onto! That's the area of our heart that's ours, not Gods!  Ya know what I mean?   Then we went through some ministry situations that were painful.  More times of being let down b...

This past week, we had another bumpy road in life!  It's funny how God uses our trials to teach us and to grow us!  I am grateful for family membes who are there for us through thick and thin and never question what we need or how great the task!  I am grateful for friends who stand beside us and lift us up and encourage us!  This week, I have hit my all time low of not understanding life.  I got a text from a friend that God has always used as an instrument of speaking truth into my life since we were little girls playing together!  I don't think she realized the depth (Or maybe she did since she always seems to "get it") of what she was saying to me but this is the passage she sent... Psalm 27:13-14 "What would have become of me had I not believed to see the Lord's goodness in the land of the living!  Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage, and let your heart be stout and enduring. yes, wait and hope for and expect th...

Seems I have been struggling a lot lately. We have been through some difficult times in the last several months and this ball of fear continues to well up inside of me and questions of what the future will hold and what health is going to be like... This last week especially has been so hard.  I just want to cave to fear!  But I'm reminded by that gentle voice inside of me that there is no room for fear!  I was looking at scripture today and was reminded of this truth... "In my distress I prayed to the LORD, and the LORD answered me and set me free. The LORD is for me, so I will have no fear. What can mere people do to me." Psalm 118:5-6 In the moments that fear begins to build in me, it's because I have forgotten the one thing I so desperately need to do!  I need to pray in my distress and then not just pray but I have to hold onto this scripture that is so awesome!  The LORD answered me!  I forget that sometimes. I think I pray so desperately and m...

 I went to Muncie today, just JJ and me.  Have you ever had that moment you really just needed a breakthrough with God, and it happens when you least expect it?  That was me today!    Life has been a real different journey for me lately.  With a fairly new diagnosis of my own health, learning the tests results, trying to learn the daily routine of what I need and then learning to cope with the fact my health is not what it once was.    I knew this bothered me, but I didn't realize to the extent that it made me struggle!  Today, as I was driving and listening to this song, something snapped in me.  I realized that my health issues don't have to bring me down.  The words to a song came on and started to hit me really hard!  This is what they said "There's a peace  I have come to know. Though my heart & flesh my fail. There's an anchor for my soul. I can sing it is well."   I haven't sang "it is ...

I sometimes sit in awe of where we came from and where we are.  Never in a million years would I have thought that God would have brought us to the place we are.  I remember standing in a service one Sunday where my husband used to be a missions pastor, I was beside him and God said to me "Will you serve me no matter what?"  Well, of course!  Ha ha!  I had no idea what that answer meant and what was to come!  Today, would I answer it differently?  Absolutely NOT!  I love where God's brought us and what we are doing!  Last night, we met at the park for youth group.  Before youth was to start, a young lady was walking up to the shelter.  As she walked, it was like she was coming directly towards me.  I looked around thinking maybe there was someone behind me and well... no.  It was me!  She came up and started talking.  Telling me life sucks and unfolding her story.  I ended up sitting down with her and l...